What i feel.

How do I feel. How do I Feel. I've had so many people ask me... and I've talked to so many people about how I feel... and yet nothing makes me feel any better :(
It's only been a day, and already I'm the depressing ex boyfriend who's dwelling too much, and seeking as much attention I can get.... Except none of those people are who I want to listen..
I'm supposed to sit here, and move on. Just like she has. It's my job, it's my responsibility to move on, Except I can't people! ok??

I was completely ok with this on sunday... just three days ago.. How did I turn around and suddenly care?
All I can do is complain.. talk about how unfair it is...
I've tried to get her back, I only had a day or two, but I tried my very best. I want her back. I can't hide that. If I be quiet, this will be easier on her. But it's so much more harder on me :(

She has someone who can comfort her... someone who can make her feel better.
I don't... I'm... alone... I have friends who are supportive.. but they can't give me what I want.
it's so much to ask for, after everything I did. and still... I think why? How could I not know it was this bad? Why did I let us stop talking?
How could she just....not love me...not even a bit :(
I'm to continue on, and support myself, while she gets someone else's support. Everything I did, to support and help her. Gone.
Do you know how much that took?? Do you know how much it hurt me to push her through all that??!

There is nothing worse than this feeling right now.. This feeling of loving someone who can't even pretend to love you back... I feel like it was just the other day when things were fine, when she loved me. but it wasn't...it was so much longer than that...

I Don't care if I'm not supposed to share this break up story.. I'm hurting too much to keep it in :( And this won't even make a difference.... I'll end up only making more people angry... and screwing everything up even more..






12/11/14 ~ She was a bitch bro, don't worry (y) Thing's got better as you knew they would eventually.

Octopus Pie and being in Love :3

There are two parts to this post, either you're reading it because you want a reccommendation of a web comic to read, or you want to hear about how happy christopher is.

Firstly, Yes, Very very Happy :) The happiest I've been in a while, it took a fair bit of anger release to get it though, hoping I don't have to resolve future problems similarly, isn't it easier when we all just get along? It is :D

This post is just a shout out to Laura Eaves, and how I love you very very mush :3
Thank you baby for keeping us strong <3
Happy 11 months. Love Christopher.

I'm....BATTTMANNNNNNN!!!

So. It's pretty late guys. I'm supposed to be in bed... but then I was all like "No chris, you gotta play batman: arkham asylum! it was like game of the year man".

The buttons! They hurt my head!

So I've just been playing a little bit of it, maybe an hour..yeah.. I approve. it really is a controller designed game though, using the mouse and spacebar to navigate and do combat is..well awkward.
I ended yp confusing myself which button did what, especially since on button had 4 different actions, but they were 'context sensitive'. Which I hate.

See? Superman wasn't the only superhero with underwear on the outside!