Showing posts with label advice. Show all posts
Showing posts with label advice. Show all posts
Tuesday, 11 November 2014
~So how are we going so far
Well?
......?
The title, How's everything going?
Oh, It's going okay.
Just..okay?
Well, actually in hindsight, I'm doing better than I probably should, I ended up picking up a few hours at the other fish shop in my town.
Alright, You got some part time work, That's surely bought you another 2-3 weeks time?
Well... Yes and no, I've definitely got more time now, A week or two at best perhaps I'll get by.
But that should be more than enough time right? originally you had to find any work you could pick up at all, when did you get this job?
Yesterday, It was while I was out to visit the Library, originally I was going to write out a new, updated resume, see if I could print off a bunch of copies to use for next time I'm in town. (City,)
Well that's good! But even though text has no tone, I can still tell you ain't pleased as punch.
I don't even like punch. Actually, thinking about it, I don't know what punch is. It's a fruit based drink right?
Quit avoiding, what's up dude?
*Scoffs* "Dude". Are you trying to level with me?
Oh, I'm sorry, Don't I reek of pretentiousness enough for you to converse with me?
..What?
Stop being an arse and talk to me. Why aren't you happy.
Probably because it's been a long day. It's possible I've just exhausted myself and am unable to lift up my own spirits right now.
Oh so today you-
Shutup. No, I was mostly home all day today. On the computer.
Ahhh...
I wanted to be a bit more productive than just sorting through my clips and-
Refreshing the front page of reddit.
Well....yeah... maybe 20-25 times...
Well what's up with that? Dude you should be pushin' to the limit, Juggling 5 part time job's and teaching someone's kid algebra.
I think it was because how easily I picked up work yesterday, that I didn't feel a "need" to push myself and achieve a whole bunch today..
Guy. You know that's how it starts.
Yeah, I know Buddy.
Friend, you really shouldn't be risking testing your self discipline and motivational ability. You should just keep doing these positive habit's until they stick.
Yeah, I know.
Stop saying you know, you clearly don't, you're repeating the same mistakes as before.
Yeah.... I have a theory why, but it could be wrong.
And what's that?
I've recently let myself become close to someone, and now the other half of me has unrealistic expectations. I mean I don't actually have expectations, but my brain still wants to convince me that I apparently see a realistic future being around this person.
Wait, so you do, or don't?
I know not to be thinking anything, but sub consciously, Wish fulfillment wise, for some reason a part of me wants this.
This, or her?
I think it was more a this thing... I mean don't get me wrong, I dig her, but I don't actually expect any further developments other than our current friendship model, with its odd fooling around.
So You're still all banged up about not having a missus eh?
What can I say, I'm a sucker for couple stuff. I haven't done couple stuff in a while,
That sounds kinda gay.
No, that's me being defensive about admitting that I'm a touchy feely guy, You don't actually think it sounds gay.
And I would've gotten away with it too.
damned teenagers and that dumb dog.
So what's the best method for you right now?
Dunno, it's nearly 1am, I should be going to bed I guess. Since I'm also aware i'm slightly burnt out and not particularly 'up' at the moment..
So what's stopping you?
The thought process of waking up tomorrow morning feeling as I did today. Unmotivated. I really can't afford to be.
Well you'll never know til you try.
I'll let you know If I have issues in the morning too.
I'll be here... counting my views on one hand.
You don't have a hand.
You don't have viewers.
touché
......?
The title, How's everything going?
Oh, It's going okay.
Just..okay?
Well, actually in hindsight, I'm doing better than I probably should, I ended up picking up a few hours at the other fish shop in my town.
Alright, You got some part time work, That's surely bought you another 2-3 weeks time?
Well... Yes and no, I've definitely got more time now, A week or two at best perhaps I'll get by.
But that should be more than enough time right? originally you had to find any work you could pick up at all, when did you get this job?
Yesterday, It was while I was out to visit the Library, originally I was going to write out a new, updated resume, see if I could print off a bunch of copies to use for next time I'm in town. (City,)
Well that's good! But even though text has no tone, I can still tell you ain't pleased as punch.
I don't even like punch. Actually, thinking about it, I don't know what punch is. It's a fruit based drink right?
Quit avoiding, what's up dude?
*Scoffs* "Dude". Are you trying to level with me?
Oh, I'm sorry, Don't I reek of pretentiousness enough for you to converse with me?
..What?
Stop being an arse and talk to me. Why aren't you happy.
Probably because it's been a long day. It's possible I've just exhausted myself and am unable to lift up my own spirits right now.
Oh so today you-
Shutup. No, I was mostly home all day today. On the computer.
Ahhh...
I wanted to be a bit more productive than just sorting through my clips and-
Refreshing the front page of reddit.
Well....yeah... maybe 20-25 times...
Well what's up with that? Dude you should be pushin' to the limit, Juggling 5 part time job's and teaching someone's kid algebra.
I think it was because how easily I picked up work yesterday, that I didn't feel a "need" to push myself and achieve a whole bunch today..
Guy. You know that's how it starts.
Yeah, I know Buddy.
Friend, you really shouldn't be risking testing your self discipline and motivational ability. You should just keep doing these positive habit's until they stick.
Yeah, I know.
Stop saying you know, you clearly don't, you're repeating the same mistakes as before.
Yeah.... I have a theory why, but it could be wrong.
And what's that?
I've recently let myself become close to someone, and now the other half of me has unrealistic expectations. I mean I don't actually have expectations, but my brain still wants to convince me that I apparently see a realistic future being around this person.
Wait, so you do, or don't?
I know not to be thinking anything, but sub consciously, Wish fulfillment wise, for some reason a part of me wants this.
This, or her?
I think it was more a this thing... I mean don't get me wrong, I dig her, but I don't actually expect any further developments other than our current friendship model, with its odd fooling around.
So You're still all banged up about not having a missus eh?
What can I say, I'm a sucker for couple stuff. I haven't done couple stuff in a while,
That sounds kinda gay.
No, that's me being defensive about admitting that I'm a touchy feely guy, You don't actually think it sounds gay.
And I would've gotten away with it too.
damned teenagers and that dumb dog.
So what's the best method for you right now?
Dunno, it's nearly 1am, I should be going to bed I guess. Since I'm also aware i'm slightly burnt out and not particularly 'up' at the moment..
So what's stopping you?
The thought process of waking up tomorrow morning feeling as I did today. Unmotivated. I really can't afford to be.
Well you'll never know til you try.
I'll let you know If I have issues in the morning too.
I'll be here... counting my views on one hand.
You don't have a hand.
You don't have viewers.
touché
Sunday, 9 November 2014
420 it
Just edited together the footage of My (and courtney's) Last night smokin' up.
There isn't anything to really get out of this, it's simply footage of what two stoners look like.
This was Last night, 3pm next day now I feel pretty good, no cravings, but I also had 3 standard drinks earlier today (I swear I was just finishing off what I had in the fridge!)
Also Courtney's already gone back on quitting. Solo tiem.
There isn't anything to really get out of this, it's simply footage of what two stoners look like.
This was Last night, 3pm next day now I feel pretty good, no cravings, but I also had 3 standard drinks earlier today (I swear I was just finishing off what I had in the fridge!)
Also Courtney's already gone back on quitting. Solo tiem.
Day Numero Uno
Oh man, You would not believe the amount of stuff I've already put off today xD.
My apologies, I'm meant to be very serious and actually a tad dramatic about all of this, but I'm just amazed at myself, it's day 1 of do better or you're fucked, and even though yes, I hung a load of washing, put away another load, Converted a bunch of footage on my PC To make up free space and to quicken the editing process. Now do you see what's wrong with the above picture?
I have a week roughly until the next set of Rent is due, which requires me to have more money than I currently have, so priority 1 should be getting up and trying to pick up hours anywhere. even if it was a meagre 10 hours, It would still be enough to pay rent and bills (in perspective now, I really, really am happy to be out of that fish shop).
But, I shouldn't be. This is meant to be the most stressful point of my life...thus far I guess.
And here I am, still not taking advantage of my time 100 percent to the "best" way that I can/should. I've identified it though, so why haven't I done anything today?
Well, let's look at the thought process.
*8:30 am Alarm sounds off, I have been awake for about 15 minutes listening to the room mate move around the house whilst also having another conversation with myself about getting out of bed:
For once I'm going to start the conversation, I don't know if this is that unusual but I feel a need to highlight it.
Well that's good for you, I'd like to lay in bed a bit more. It's warm and snuggly here and I don't plan on moving I think.
Hath doth thou'st already forgotten what today is?
Oh God, that is annoying. I'll remember not to talk in ye olde anymore. Anyway I haven't forgotten.
It's Day 1.
Yeah, I know, our first big step together.
Seem's like I'm going all the effort here and it's only been 10 minutes of conscious time.
Hey that's not fair, you probably had like all night to plan this conversation.
No Chris, You know it doesn't work like that.
I wanted an out.
So you know you have to get up?
*Rolls over back to the phone, checks the time, it is now 8:45
Yeah...probably..
Probably? This is your can do attitude for the first day?
Oh dude come on, don't judge, I just woke up and I'm still in bed. I feel way better after I get dressed.
Well there's a first step then. Get up, dress yourself into something smart looking.
Why?
It's your first day, any activity other than applying for jobs is going to be deemed a waste of time.
I suppose that makes sense... Getting at least between 10-25 Hours a week right now should be my first priority.
Exactly, You can go to the Local Library, print out a bunch of resume's, head into town/corio and inquire for as many part time, casual and/or full time positions you can.
Yeah... But I also want to quickly check through my recorded gameplay content, maybe upload another video or two. One a compilation and the other tips on how to play battlefield 4.
I'm sorry, will either of these pay your rent next week?
No....
So we shouldn't be doing that first.
Well I did.
Priorities must b-
Wait, what?
Oh, Well It's 1:05pm at writing this. I've made two video blog recordings thus far about how I've felt and what I've done today.
And.... what did you do.
Convert footage, hang washing, take off washing, Drink two drinks (finishing my last and third drink now, I don't really want it sitting in the fridge tempting me)
Whatever you tell youself.
Well are you getting up now to drop off resume's and pick up any hours you can?
Well....no, I'm sitting here typing this up..
And is this blog going to pay your rent next week?
Yeah, I get it. I should be applying for jobs right now.
Yeah, get onto it.
My apologies, I'm meant to be very serious and actually a tad dramatic about all of this, but I'm just amazed at myself, it's day 1 of do better or you're fucked, and even though yes, I hung a load of washing, put away another load, Converted a bunch of footage on my PC To make up free space and to quicken the editing process. Now do you see what's wrong with the above picture?
I have a week roughly until the next set of Rent is due, which requires me to have more money than I currently have, so priority 1 should be getting up and trying to pick up hours anywhere. even if it was a meagre 10 hours, It would still be enough to pay rent and bills (in perspective now, I really, really am happy to be out of that fish shop).
But, I shouldn't be. This is meant to be the most stressful point of my life...thus far I guess.
And here I am, still not taking advantage of my time 100 percent to the "best" way that I can/should. I've identified it though, so why haven't I done anything today?
Well, let's look at the thought process.
*8:30 am Alarm sounds off, I have been awake for about 15 minutes listening to the room mate move around the house whilst also having another conversation with myself about getting out of bed:
For once I'm going to start the conversation, I don't know if this is that unusual but I feel a need to highlight it.
Well that's good for you, I'd like to lay in bed a bit more. It's warm and snuggly here and I don't plan on moving I think.
Hath doth thou'st already forgotten what today is?
Oh God, that is annoying. I'll remember not to talk in ye olde anymore. Anyway I haven't forgotten.
It's Day 1.
Yeah, I know, our first big step together.
Seem's like I'm going all the effort here and it's only been 10 minutes of conscious time.
Hey that's not fair, you probably had like all night to plan this conversation.
No Chris, You know it doesn't work like that.
I wanted an out.
So you know you have to get up?
*Rolls over back to the phone, checks the time, it is now 8:45
Yeah...probably..
Probably? This is your can do attitude for the first day?
Oh dude come on, don't judge, I just woke up and I'm still in bed. I feel way better after I get dressed.
Well there's a first step then. Get up, dress yourself into something smart looking.
Why?
It's your first day, any activity other than applying for jobs is going to be deemed a waste of time.
I suppose that makes sense... Getting at least between 10-25 Hours a week right now should be my first priority.
Exactly, You can go to the Local Library, print out a bunch of resume's, head into town/corio and inquire for as many part time, casual and/or full time positions you can.
Yeah... But I also want to quickly check through my recorded gameplay content, maybe upload another video or two. One a compilation and the other tips on how to play battlefield 4.
I'm sorry, will either of these pay your rent next week?
No....
So we shouldn't be doing that first.
Well I did.
Priorities must b-
Wait, what?
Oh, Well It's 1:05pm at writing this. I've made two video blog recordings thus far about how I've felt and what I've done today.
And.... what did you do.
Convert footage, hang washing, take off washing, Drink two drinks (finishing my last and third drink now, I don't really want it sitting in the fridge tempting me)
Whatever you tell youself.
Well are you getting up now to drop off resume's and pick up any hours you can?
Well....no, I'm sitting here typing this up..
And is this blog going to pay your rent next week?
Yeah, I get it. I should be applying for jobs right now.
Yeah, get onto it.
Saturday, 8 November 2014
Friday, 7 November 2014
~So he smoked his last 3 pipes.
Hi.
It's a bit difficult to start this off as an explanation. More so a little update as it started, but then he had a grand idea.
I should make posts under as myself.
Who am I?
He's decided that officially I am "a representation of what I want to be" who counsels and talks to him whenever something needs to be deconstructed and understood. Sadly my knowledge is only limited to his, as this isn't a split personality situation. He's having difficulty correcting all the he's and I's as.
It's a bit difficult to start this off as an explanation. More so a little update as it started, but then he had a grand idea.
I should make posts under as myself.
Who am I?
He's decided that officially I am "a representation of what I want to be" who counsels and talks to him whenever something needs to be deconstructed and understood. Sadly my knowledge is only limited to his, as this isn't a split personality situation. He's having difficulty correcting all the he's and I's as.
I'm simply the rational, pro happy choices side of thinking. Being labelled as a character for mere amusement.
Anyway. I hope he kicks this weed thing. Although we got a few other issues we need to work through as well.
For another time.
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