~Two steps forward, two steps back.

I'm a little annoyed.

Christopher in the space of I believe 3 weeks has managed to get 2 things done.

1. Organize centrelink payments, to cover funding until work comes around my way.
2. There is no 2. He still smokes every couple of days when he gets invited by his friend.

He honestly only seems to comply because a part of him is too optimistic about whether he is going to develop a closer relationship with her. I'm unsure whether it is based on a friendship concept, or if he is being stubborn into regards on how easily he can let go of people after they reach a certain level of intimacy with him.
We've acknowledged the past, and have been trying to work around his tendency to become over attached to people the moment his imagination believes it can pass it's over-reaching dreams over to and integrate itself into his logical side.

It is very frustrating to say the least when he manages to spin his fairly tale bullshit into my side of the head, rendering me unable to highlight when he is being unrealistic, and essentially mute me the moment he feels he can progress any of his dreams.

I get dreams, they act as a motivator to push you beyond your normal expectations. Having goals gives you a sense of direction, a path that no matter how far off it you explore, searching through thickets and off-trail tracks that all metaphorically represent branching out and trying new things, ways to interact; that no matter how far you wander, just like home you are drawn to the original path you started. The end goals you first dreamt of as a naive 16 year old kid.

This, does not help me at all >.>

Do you know how long it takes to develop a habit?
For a routine ritual to become from something you push yourself to do, to something you just autonomously do without thinking is approx 52 days.

This data could be off by a margin of 17 days, but irregardless; none of the positive habits we have been trying to drill into ourselves has lasted more than a week, week and a half tops.

I think we bit off more than we could chew. Simply acknowledging this isn't enough of course, but allowing either of us to drift back to not actively improving our life, as opposed to just Living life, isn't an option we want to take.

Impatiency is a key problem here, trying to get so much changed/achieved in a short span of time, it burns you out. A plan may be written out tomorrow...

I'll let him sleep, it's been a long day.

Status: 3 days since last pipe. Want this run to go longer.