So a couple of things to point out after the 3 day phase.
1) I really did forget how much easier it gets after 3 days. But it is still as easy as before to fall back into it. A false sense of security. I nearly caved last night, but feel very thankful to myself and the fact that it was 1 am as reasons why I persevered. Sort of.
2) My mood is very complacent and flat when I am not engaging in conversation with another person. I perk up, feel confident and good. Until I walk away and back to being by myself. I don't feel down, it feels more like being tired of feeling down. So now I just feel meh.
This is not helpful in trying to achieve getting back my motivation, or working on my discipline. I am unsure if I spend a few hours with a friend whether that positive reaction will continue to flow in me when we are done.
But I think I should rule out whether that is the case first. Will spend today working on improving my social standing with people I know. Can only hope it leads to a future domino effect with future social engagements.
Christopher Craven out
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