~So how are we going so far

Well?
......?

The title, How's everything going?
Oh, It's going okay.

Just..okay?
Well, actually in hindsight, I'm doing better than I probably should, I ended up picking up a few hours at the other fish shop in my town.

Alright, You got some part time work, That's surely bought you another 2-3 weeks time?
Well... Yes and no, I've definitely got more time now, A week or two at best perhaps I'll get by.

But that should be more than enough time right? originally you had to find any work you could pick up at all, when did you get this job?
Yesterday, It was while I was out to visit the Library, originally I was going to write out a new, updated resume, see if I could print off a bunch of copies to use for next time I'm in town. (City,)

Well that's good! But even though text has no tone, I can still tell you ain't pleased as punch.
I don't even like punch. Actually, thinking about it, I don't know what punch is. It's a fruit based drink right?

Quit avoiding, what's up dude?
*Scoffs* "Dude". Are you trying to level with me?

Oh, I'm sorry, Don't I reek of pretentiousness enough for you to converse with me?
..What?

Stop being an arse and talk to me. Why aren't you happy. 
Probably because it's been a long day. It's possible I've just exhausted myself and am unable to lift up my own spirits right now.

Oh so today you-
Shutup. No, I was mostly home all day today. On the computer.

Ahhh...
I wanted to be a bit more productive than just sorting through my clips and-

Refreshing the front page of reddit.
Well....yeah... maybe 20-25 times...

Well what's up with that? Dude you should be pushin' to the limit, Juggling 5 part time job's and teaching someone's kid algebra. 
I think it was because how easily I picked up work yesterday, that I didn't feel a "need" to push myself and achieve a whole bunch today..

Guy. You know that's how it starts.
Yeah, I know Buddy.

Friend, you really shouldn't be risking testing your self discipline and motivational ability. You should just keep doing these positive habit's until they stick.
Yeah, I know.

Stop saying you know, you clearly don't, you're repeating the same mistakes as before.
Yeah.... I have a theory why, but it could be wrong.

And what's that?
I've recently let myself become close to someone, and now the other half of me has unrealistic expectations. I mean I don't actually have expectations, but my brain still wants to convince me that I apparently see a realistic future being around this person.

Wait, so you do, or don't?
I know not to be thinking anything, but sub consciously, Wish fulfillment wise, for some reason a part of me wants this.

This, or her?
I think it was more a this thing... I mean don't get me wrong, I dig her, but I don't actually expect any further developments other than our current friendship model, with its odd fooling around.

So You're still all banged up about not having a missus eh?
What can I say, I'm a sucker for couple stuff. I haven't done couple stuff in a while,

That sounds kinda gay.
No, that's me being defensive about admitting that I'm a touchy feely guy, You don't actually think it sounds gay.

And I would've gotten away with it too.
damned teenagers and that dumb dog.

So what's the best method for you right now?
Dunno, it's nearly 1am, I should be going to bed I guess. Since I'm also aware i'm slightly burnt out and not particularly 'up' at the moment..

So what's stopping you?
The thought process of waking up tomorrow morning feeling as I did today. Unmotivated. I really can't afford to be.

Well you'll never know til you try.
I'll let you know If I have issues in the morning too.

I'll be here... counting my views on one hand.
You don't have a hand.

You don't have viewers.


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